Whiskey Wishes, by Josie Provencher

Whiskey Wishes
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​hushed steps to survive
toes trapped with rich agony
3 months to fully break them in.
I fucking hated those black dress shoes.
your stare of dissatisfaction has never left my soul
“A golden opportunity” 
Blood soaked fingernails gripped painful paychecks
Lungs gutted with ugly hatred, I began to sob. 
I didn’t know Lucifer was 5’5. 
Mere inches are calculated, nothing goes unnoticed. 
Blue and White china shattered against the wooden floor,
I’m a dead man now. 
“Experience of a lifetime”
Whisky wishes on Halsted bus rides
I don’t even like whisky,
Why am I here?
40 hours turn into 40 years
White hairs at 21
Precision haunts at dusk.
I swear,
To be sliced across my chest 
Is easier to bear than the utter perfection you demand. 

​Josie Provencher (he/him) is an unapologetically queer young creative living in Chicago, Illinois. Josie studied Film & Acting at Columbia College of Chicago, and has participated in a handful of professional and local theater productions over the years. When Josie is not pondering new short film ideas, watching the hottest new horror film, or running around the city of Chicago with friends & family, you can find him working at Kumiko, one of the “world’s 100 best bars”, according to TIME Magazine 2019! Find Josie on Instagram @josie_provencher